Sunday, June 28, 2009;
typed out on ; 7:48 AM
okayyy.
for these past few days,i've been emo-ing and crying like wtf.
lol i know.
that day i cried so much i actually felt dehydrated.
OMG can somebody puh-lease smack me in the face?
grrrrrr.
why am i crying?
hmmm.
cause i kept listening to those sad sad songs about love and all.
i know.pathetic.
with a capital "P".
haiz.
usually i am not like that.
but i dunno why i am acting this way.
lol.
smack me someone please?
and my heart has been aching lately.
cause i miss him.
terribly.
i want to forget him.
really i do.
but....
he is my friend.
a good friend.
and i THINK he does not realise i am ABSOLUTELY gaga over him.
haiz.
i seriously feel like murdering myself.
and P.S; all my ex-boyfriends never make me feel this way before.
lol.
i want to be his but...
i know i will never be good enough for him.
he deserves someone a lot better.
someone who is not super bitchy like me.
not blur,dumb and ugly like me.
someone who is gentle and ladylike unlike me.
i am not running myself down.
its true.
LOL.
godddd smack me now people.
and what if we get together?
we will be so so so happy and in love.
but it will not last long.
cause i am not a faithful one.
i get bored easily with one man.
lol.
and i will pull back before something really really serious goes on.
cause i am afraid of being hurt.
once i am hurt,i will seek revenge on the person who hurts me.
i know.
like wtf?!.
haiz haiz haiz.
but the thing is...
i have fallen for him.
really really.
i think of him every min and i miss him so much my heart is aching.
and the thought of him being hurt makes me feel hurt too.
cliche i know.
godddd.
how how how?
i shall smack myself now.
lol.
i want to stay single now cause i don't want to be hurt and i don't want to hurt anyone.
haiz.
but the thought of him being in another girl's arms makes me want to murder that girl.
haiz haiz.
okay u know what?
i will let him go.
he deserves his own happiness.
goodbye forever dear friend.
go have a happily ever after with your princess.
((:
Saturday, June 27, 2009;
typed out on ; 11:42 PM
helloooo people.
what's up?
lol.
(:
okay so yesterday went out with tabby.
chris cnnt make it.
god knows why.
so we went to watch the ghosts of girlfriends' past.
it was awesome.
though we need to seat at the front.
but whatevers.
lalala.
:DDD
after movie,walked everywhere at orchard.
walk walk walk.
till my leg cramp and became numb.
gerek.
LOL.
then we saw these 2 girls who dressed like i-want-to-look-chic-but-i-have-absolutely-no-fashion-sense.
so wannabeh.
oooh bite me.
(:
so me and tabby bitched about them and laughed till i nearly pee.
cause one of the girls was walking like a ketam who just kena fcuked.
HAHAHA.
=X
then called hariani cause tabby is uber random.
so yahhh.
scream here and there.
IT WAS AMAZING TO SCREAM AT ORCHARD!
so not high-class.
but whatevs.
:DDD
and those 3 are back in sing alr!
hell yeah!
imthem like siao.
SIAO.
lol.
XD
then tabby needs to go meet her mum for dinner at bugis.
so we went and tabby being tabby waited for the wrong train and we missed the right train!
OMG OMG.
but its okay.
cos otw to bugis in the mrt gt this one guy wearing ndp 09 lanyard super cuteeee.
me tabby likey!
hehe.
XD
cnfirm army personnel.
so maybe can see him during NE shows.
:DDDDD
tabby is like so uber jealous.
lalala.
then tabby meet her mum i went hm.
then i saw farah in the bus.
LOL.
but i blur i didnt say hi.
heh.
sorry.
=X
today did nothing.
except go sch for ndp training.
awesome awesome.
i love my sector which is outer cordon!
yayness puh-lease.
:DDDDDD
i will be at marina sq for preview and actual parade.
LOL.
come say hi hor.
don't action with me.
heh.
(:
and i gt _____ number.
can go prank call him.
XD
mon starting attachment.
cnnt wait bodoh!
kids lah sia.
KIDS.
KIDS.
KIDS.
yayness!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i am done.
so go berambus and miss me.
(:
Thursday, June 25, 2009;
typed out on ; 2:25 AM
hey people.
so how are you all doing?
(:
lol.
so basically i have done nothing these whole 2 weeks.
just slack,slack and more slack.
watch korean drama,play with alip and watch youtube videos and change blogskin.
lalala.
gerek i tell you to do nothing.
LOL.
:DDDDD
and when i feel hyper on a particular day, i would actively exercise and clean my room.
(:
like finally.
my room is now erm suitable for a human to sleep and relax.
XD
and as a reward,mama brought me go shopping.
at cotton on.
cause it is cheap and uber-gorgeous,i bought a lot of stuff there.
yay!
happy happy girl.
(:
thanks a million mama for being my portable atm.
lalala.
XD
later one fine day i will bring my mama go shopping.
:D
and tomorrow going catch a movie with tabby and chris.
yay!
i miss those two.
i miss hariani atika and corny too.
and of course i miss that guy too.
and my babes.
LOL.
please come back safely those three.
=((
haiz i love them all.
<333
okay gtg.
alip is demanding my attention.
roar.
=X
byes.
note: when will i be able to capture your heart?
